You did what???

So I'm back at St. Mary's...ehh...I miss Uhart, but I'm trying to make the best of this place. Um I'm glad I went home this weekend, I needed to see some familiar faces, and some closure.

NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER x25 AGAIN....I'VE DONE IT BEFORE AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT, BUT THERE WERE NO CONSEQUENCES NOW THERE ARE.....NEVER

*i'm not talking about sex*

&&yesterday&&

*Went to nina's graduation party*
*"La Familia" stopped bye ^^thanx guys^^*
*after party, got a little too drunk*

&&today&&

*woke up*
*went with the crew to see XMen 3*
*taco bucks*
*got ready for chemstry tomorrow*
*bed*

"Have faith in yourself and those who love you."

~marcus and james came to the house~
~went to starbucks~
~sang at church choir "the basses rocked!!!"~
~went back to starbucks~
~mother called and demanded I come home~
~got home and fought about how i still have to do everything i'm told no matter what and about my "life choice" for two hours~

^^cried myself to sleep^^

~picked up the sister
~sister and I went to do our mini summer job
~Sister and I ate taqueria
*mood swing begins*
~went to starbucks with the crew -1
~dropped sister off to hang out on her own
~went back to starbucks
*mood swing ends*
~went to dollar movies to see V for Vendetta to kill time while he went to church
*targeted bitchiness begins*
~went back to starbucks with crew -2 +1 <3
*targeted bitchiness ends due to distance*
*guilt ensues*
*#I'm so sowwie#*

"overall"
great day cuz of the crew *MUAHZ*

I never thought that I would ever get attached to the valley, I mean come on other than shopping which compared to other places is louzy, and eating there is nothing to do here. But we have some pretty great people here, Jessica is just an inspiration, Marcus has helped me grow so much, and James is quickly becoming another friend I will never let go. These people along with Barbie are going to make it alot harder to leave a second time. I have solace in the fact that I'll have a car this time around and I'll only be four hours away from home versus the 37 hours I was when I went to the University of Hartford.

To my friends at UHart, you have no idea how hard it was to say goodbye, but I hope to see each of you later in life and share many more memories of you. To Patrick who took me to my first gay club...hehe. To Derek and Adam who on top of being great friends helped me define myself and accept myself and stuck with me to the very end. To those in Spectrum who always put a smile on my face; Asha, Bryan, Lauren, Rachel, John, Shawn, Mel, Sam, Brett, Ben, and Danielle. To Brit and Mary the most bad ass girls from New York who were great friends, but also always kept me in line. To Angie and Patrick who took me in on Easter. To David whose mindless rambling always lightened my day, and always listened to me even after the millionth time. To my girls, Becca, Elsa, Kristin, Lindsay, Jasmine, Olithea, Hana, Lidia, Alissa, Rose, and Sonia who were great friends but also made sure I had the most awesome time during Spring Fling. To Maria who got me through Calculus 1 and never complained, and her and Kerry who got me through my first engineering project...by the way I still have that stupid thing and email me when and where you want it and I'll mail it to you, and to Ashley "Banjo Pants" my barnes and noble partner "yay chocolate".

To lost friends at UHart, no matter how hard you tried to run my name through the mud, or make yourself feel superior to me, you wasted your time. I Won, I found great friends and even in distance I've kept them. I'm going off to study what I love and I have people who love me, and what do you have? People who can't stand the sight of you, people who when given the opportunity are telling everyone they can about your pathetic lives. I hope that in time you become better people, but I also hope that I never see your faces again.

Well I've been home for awhile...Marcus and James gave me an awesome welcome and I've been hanging with them and Barbie since I've been home. The parents have been almost bearable, at least they're both not annoying me at the same time. I had lunch with Jessica yesterday and we got caught up, hopefully we'll go see Sin Bandera next monday but we're all busy so it all depends. Congrats on all you graduates, make the best of the days you have left...you really will always remember them as some of the best. I'm trying to figure out if I should take a science course or a humanities course this summer. Ok this is the part where I get all emo ish and say I want someone in my life, I want someone to spend my time with, someone to think about, someone to care about, and someone to miss. *tear* hehe Well back to happier stuff, I'm super excited about going to St. Mary's, I've always been impressed with their biology department and now that I have decided that's what I want to study, I can't wait. Well I'll rant more later...ttyl.

Wow....that's what I've got to say about the past couple of weeks. They have just zoomed by. I'm so happy to be transferring to St. Mary's for fall semester. I've changed my major to Biology because although I love to work with engineers, I do not want to actually be one, so therefore I'm transferring to St. Mary's which is a better school for Biology than UHart. Well I'm hitting the sack, can't wait to see everyone at home once this semester comes to a close.

So I did all of my laundry today...makes me really happy because now I have a huger selection to choose from. I did a lot of work on my myspace and livejournal. I had dinner with Elsa, Rebecca, and Kacy. Went to lab and saw the bane of my existence. Then I had to go look for money for my taxi tomorrow morning. I can't wait to go home!!!

So wow, I woke up at a decent time and I'm actually getting some things done.

I'm so excited about going back home, I haven't really been homesick at all since I've gone off to school, but right now I just really want to be at home for awhile. Hopefully I can catch up with some people I haven't seen in awhile and some that I visited with the last time I was home.

Oh and anyone who reads this, please comment on whether or not y'all think I'm a fresa. I sooo vote not.

I've been dealing with a lot of things lately and I'm sure I'll get into them with more detail later. A really good friend listened to me tonight and told me to write down everything that was bothering me and find practical ways of dealing with them. This is my way of keep track of how I'm feeling from day to day, and hopefully it will help me improve myself. This journal will remain open as long as I feel safe doing so. One thing that I will attempt from now in is to be honest with everyone around me, and as long as I'm always honest then I'll never have to worry about having something to hide. If I have nothing to hide, then there's no reason why my journal/thoughts should remain hidden.